Today I am present to loss. Too much of it. And really I am not the only one who has ever lost anyone, yet at times, I feel like I am the only one who feels this way.
It is like a two sided coin. I never have one feeling that I don’t also have the opposite feeling along with it.
My family is shrinking. My brother, husband and Dad all passed away long before I was ready. Is one every ready?
And I have an every increasing family. I guess I could ask myself the question is this bad or good? Do I like it the way it is or not? And if I do like it does that diminish the value of the relationships I once had?
I am thankful for my Mum’s neighbours and their friendly horses that we got to visit on this lovely sunny day. And the chickens that my son and his wife have up the hill. I really love just being with the animals. I am thankful for my family and friends. Each one a special gift to me. And as this is the year I have declared for reconnection. I will share the gifts that my friends have given me with each one of them.
It is not something that comes naturally to me. So this should prove interesting.
It is not something that comes naturally to me. So this should prove interesting.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone.
October 8th, 2012
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